Praxis Is Over Now

Today was the presentations. I felt pretty good; I didn't feel nervous or anything. Probably because I knew what I was talking about. That's rare. Hehe.

Well, I'm ready for spring break. I'm feeling strangely light that I'm getting suspicious. Especially since I had a frustrating day yesterday. Nothing happened to me per say, I just got annoyed. Watched Princess Mononoke and it was as if people could not help themselves but to comment on every little damn cliche in the goddamned movie. It's not like I haven't seen it before, but it was a first for me in english and plus I was concerned about everyone else whose experience might've been ruined. I should stop caring so damn much about other people who don't even know me. Anyway, that was already pissing me off and then Ocarina club afterwards was JUST A BALL. Apparently, the dude running it just found out he needed to turn in an English essay the next day that he thought was due next week. Also, he hadn't finished his praxis video so he let everyone do what they fucking wanted. Let's just say I was severely disappointed in him, ESPECIALLY since he didn't use that hour to improve upon either thing but rather showed off what he had of his praxis to another classmate. I think the fucker just wanted free time with his friends. He has responsibilities as the conductor (or whatever) of the club and he just blows it off. And yet how many times does he chastise people who don't show up to the meetings??? I asked my mom to pick me up early and just broke down in tears, I was so frustrated.

So that left me with little hope for humanity. Fucking irresponsible, rude assholes. Or I don't know, maybe I'm too nice and stuff that I'll be killed off by natural selection so that the dumb ignorant people will continue making the world dumb and ignorant. I know there's not a damn thing I can do about, but I absolutely REFUSE for it to be forced onto me. Or whatever. I should just stop giving a damn.

Ugh. This fucking rant. I'm just too sensitive. I'm not a violent person but I would not hesitate to break a vase if I had the chance. No, I shouldn't take it out on the vase. Maybe I'll just eat cookies and sulk. Wait, I ate all the cookies. FML.

And now this isn't going anywhere. Blah. I'm upset. And I shouldn't be. Stupid people should not steal my joy. That would be easier if it weren't for the fact they outnumber me.

I want to do something. Like buy a book or two. Or have ice cream. How long has it been since I've had ice cream? Or a game. Play a game. I've never considered going out for a run, but it's such a beautiful day. Or a swim. Oh god this is beginning to be funny. Wish I had insurance so I could go to a doctor and see if I have bipolar or something. Just for the fun of it. and mess with the doctor. Ooh! I'm going to watch more Doctor Who. I should stop now. XD

Oh, also, it didn't help I talked about not forgiving a former friend who backstabbed me 5 times no matter how much I wish things could be like they were back then. But I think I'm starting to let go. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so light~