I really need to find a healthier alternative to biting the skin off my lips and tearing the skin off from around my cuticles when I get bored. 

Also, side-note: I think I would be better at speaking up during conversations and forming coherent thoughts if every time I attempted to do so I wasn't blatantly ignored whenever my mother ceases talking to me to go into her own contemplative thought. 

Like wow good talk thank you for engaging in a two sentence conversation with me and then acting like I never said anything. 

Very irritable today for no reason. Again. God I hate my life.